No snooze button on this clock

I love children especially babies. The hugs and cuddles and kisses, but I'm tired of buying and giving my love and affection to other people's kids. Not that it's that much of a burden on me or for me. It's just now I want my own baby to give all of this to. I'm in no rush b/c I want to be better prepared for the upbringing of a child and I would love to do this the right way. You know the whole ring thing before I go to "birthing babies." It's just kind of tough when with each approaching day you're gradually getting older and the people around you are starting to put their own stamps of immortality on the world. Why can't he just literally fall in front of me? I guess I have to get out here and do some serious dating and *gasp* date outside of my race. I'm not really up to dating, and I'm not to sure or to keen on the latter. I would prefer to stick close to home but in this day and age you have to be open-minded. I'm open-minded to an extent but I dont think enough for me to date a White American. If that's what you like, I'm not knocking anybody's choices. You love who you love. Something in me just won't let me go there.