You dont know how it feels to be me......

I slept for 8hrs for the first time in over a year. Too bad it's due to the fact that last night I cried myself to sleep. I dont ever want to feel that way again.

I think i'm losing it

Today for some reason has not been a very good day. Actually it started yesterday but trickled over into early day. Its all this pent up restlessness. On top of that, this medication is not helping. In fact, I think the Adipex may be exacerbating my way of thinking. It's just like a cauldron just bubbling and boiling. Waiting to boil over. I've made an executive decision that I'll have to tell you guys about later, but long story short, it's time for some changes. I'm not getting any younger and time definitely isnt getting any slower. I'm going to blink one day and half of my life will have passed me by. At this poing of my life, i'm not really living life so much as I'm a passive participant. It feels like I'm a casual observer in my own reality. All I can do is hope for the best with my endeavors. It may not be big but there's still an ember of hope and possiblity flickering amongst the ashes. I'm just waiting for the winds of change to fan into a full blown flame.

*deuces*

Houston we have Lift off

After what seems like forever, I'm BACK!!! I'm finally able to blog from the comforts of a computer and not my mobile phone. I have to admit that I missed blogging. It's not like I got on here and did it often or that I even really talked about much when I did. I guess it kind of goes with the whole cliche' about not missing something until you dont have it.

I'm just glad to be back online and reconnected.

*deuces*